Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Know Ye The Difference


(Been meditating on this all day long...)


I envy people who can hold their tongue. It used to be I could think something without having to verbalize it, but that was a younger version of me, long ago, and with less grey hair. The older I get the less I seem to care about blowback for something I’ve said or for the constraints of political correctness for that matter. 

With age comes wisdom, and wisdom compels us to speak truth, whether unpopular, despised, or detested.
During a recent conversation with a pastor, he asked me a question which initiated an immediate and less than politically correct response. It is not an answer I ruminated upon, it is not a zinger I’d planned to insert somewhere in our dialogue, it just came out without my even being aware of it. 
 
As we were discussing the current condition of the church in general, the aforementioned pastor asked, in an innocent and to my ears somewhat naïve tone, when I thought the great awakening would commence in America. 
 
Without skipping a beat, I looked him in the eyes, and answered, ‘before we can hope for an awakening, those calling themselves Christians must know the difference between idolatry, and the true church.’ 
 
Even after having a few days to think about what I said, I still stand behind my statement. Before we can begin to hope for an awakening, the household of faith must know the difference between idolatry, and the true worship of the one true God.
When God is no longer present in the midst of the congregation, the ceremonies they go through, the programs they put forth, the plays and skits and other things they come up with to fill the few hours per week they’re supposed to put on a show, amounts to idolatry, pure and simple. 
 
Ezekiel 10:4, “Then the glory of the Lord went up from the cherub, and paused over the threshold of the temple; and the house was filled with the cloud, and the court was full of the brightness of the Lord’s glory.” 
 
A great sadness wells up in my heart each time I read the tenth chapter of Ezekiel, because I imagine God causing His glory to hover over the threshold of the temple, holding His breath, wondering if the priests would notice His glory had departed. 
 
How could those who ought to have known God best from among His people not notice He was no longer among them? How could those who ought to have been the most in tune with the glory of God, not begin to cry out and rend their garments the instant the glory of the Lord went up from the cherub? 
 
Worship has become so mechanical, and our ceremonies have been reflexive and routine for so long, that we no longer see the superficiality of our routine any longer. No one asks if God is present, no one inquires as to why the glory of God has not made its presence felt in years and in some cases decades, because it’s all perfunctory idolatry. 
 
As long as the bills get paid, and the lights stay on, as long as we can afford a youth pastor and a music minister, who’s going to notice the absence of God’s glory?
God paused over the threshold of the temple hoping His people would notice the absence of His glory, but alas they were too busy going through the motions, too busy glorying in themselves, too busy reading manuals on church growth and the dynamic delivery of lukewarm messages to notice He was gone. 
 
Ezekiel 10:18-19, “Then the glory of the Lord departed from the threshold of the temple and stood over the cherubim. And the cherubim lifted their wings and mounted up from the earth in my sight. When they went out, the wheels were beside them; and they stood at the door of the east gate of the Lord’s house, and the glory of the God of Israel was above them.” 
 
God paused to see if His people would notice His glory had departed, and when they did not, both His glory, and the cherubim who stood guard, -who were they symbolic protectors of God’s people-, lifted their wings and mounted up from the earth.
 
For four hundred years, those of the temple went about their ritual, and ceremony, for four hundred years they practiced their idolatry,-because the glory of God had mounted up, and left the earth-, and for four hundred years they did not notice the glory was absent. 
 
The hour is late, and time is long overdue for those who remain faithful and true to God to cry out for His glory to return upon His beloved. Only the glory of God will restore the church to where it ought to be. Only the glory of God will stir the complacent, indifferent and apathetic hearts to wakefulness, bringing them to the place of true worship before His throne. 
 
Two options remain viable to today’s church: the first is to keep doing what we’ve been doing, to keep clanging cymbals, and banging drums, and manufacturing a glory of our own making, the second is to humble ourselves and come before Him in holiness with repentant hearts, and beseech Him to pour His Holy Spirit upon us, and return His glory to His people. 
 
One thing is certain, if we don’t know the difference between idolatry and true worship, we have never experienced true worship!
 
 With love in Christ,

by Michael Boldea Jr. 

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Before Azusa...there was Shiloh

Sound familiar?

Sandford was early attracted to premillennialism, the Higher Life movement, the indwelling power of the Holy Spirit, and divine healing; and in the 1890s, he created a communal society in coastal Maine, SHILOH, whose members "lived on faith" rather than being gainfully employed. Considered by former members and many neighbors to be a crank and an autocrat who insisted on unquestioning loyalty, Sandford—who had identified himself with the biblical Elijah and David—was convicted of manslaughter in 1911 and served seven years in a federal penitentiary.

BUT, wonder of wonders...
Out of Sandford's Shiloh- came Charles Parham,
and out of his ministry came

William Seymour, of the the AZUSA STREET REVIVAL.

Charles Parnham, Seymour's former pastor and teacher-
opposed the Azusa revival, wanting to lead it himself.

By October 1906, Charles Parham was invited to speak for a series of meetings at Azusa Street, but was quickly un-invited. Several reasons can be given for Azusa Street's disassociation from him. Firstly, Parham had personality conflicts with Seymour and wanted to be the chief authority figure of the movement that was taking place, but the presiding leaders of the Apostolic Faith Mission were slow to make any changes to their methods or leadership. Secondly, rumors were surfacing that Parham had been committing sodomy ("an unnatural offense") with young males.[2

So two points I believe the Lord is showing me:

When there is revival and true preaching of the Word- Deception springs up at the same time.
Many of these have come through supernatural signs and visions. (Joseph Smith- Ellen G. White)

Revival/preaching of the Word DECEPTION/CULTS
Second Great Awakening birth of Mormonism through a supernatural sign
Charles Finney 1830's- 1840's same time period!
revivals in upstate NY

early church Gnosticism




AND- Even though Sandford fell into other non Gospel teachings, and Parnham fell away (at least for a while), the outpouring of the Holy Spirit did come, and thousands of lives were changed.

Jesus wins! Hallelujah!

And I tell you, you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.( Mt 16: 18)

I will say it again...the Word says...THE GATE OF HELL SHALL NOT PREVAIL OVER IT. HALLELUJAH!!!

Monday, December 26, 2011

Soulish feelings, signs, wonders and works

The lying religious spirit is so subtle.
A person can be listening to Christian music ALL DAY LONG.
Reading the Bible ALL DAY LONG.
Memorizing Scripture
Zealous

and still deceived....@!@@!!!!!!! (not a swear word- just a huge exclamation point)

Friend in question has LOTS of testimonies.
And receives good feelings in the soul from this evil spirit.
It operates in the realm of the soul- feelings, many signs and wonders...dreams, CONSTANT
revelations.

She sounds very happy.

I noticed the same happy sound in ____'s voice,  "yes things are really good here. " But me and others...we sound so serious, sad, concerned, at times angry even.


People say, "we are testing fruit." Then they hear a pseudo peace, pseudo joy...and assume- THAT IS THE FRUIT. But it is soulish and demonic. It is the deception made of sugar.

I noticed the voices of two people I spoke too. Both sounded confident and upbeat. But the ex-(group name)ers sound broken and grieving. They are not confident sounding...careful about what they speak. But the false religious spirit is so quick to call this one a hypocrite and that one a Pharisee. It says " I make religious people uncomfortable."
Or

"Religious people hate me. "

If you speak the Word or test it with the Word...it will attack and demean. You are "religious."
"Traditional." Or what I heard today "In the letter not in the spirit. "

Yes, by God's grace I am not in that spirit. Praise you Lord for that.

I have been called "a slanderer" "unloving" and "judgmental." These are lies...but the enemy knows where to hit. When what it accuses...it actually does. Usually in secret.

The man I know with this spirit, has sent me some really vicious emails. And said I have a spirit of fear...why can't I overcome. He used personal knowledge against me, things I confessed in what I thought was a safe, mature group. JEZEBEL. Then I feel tired, depressed, confused, self doubting. JEZEBEL.


The falling away, from my vantage point is ENORMOUS. And the falling away I am seeing on all sides of me....heart breaking. I feel such grief in my spirit. I can understand Jeremiah's tears...and Paul's cry...I would be accursed just so they would see.

It is such a frustrating thing, speaking to one who has an idol or refuses to hear. So frustrating...like speaking to a stone wall. And in fact you are, but maybe it is sowing a seed of truth that will come to bear fruit in the future.

Lord, please keep me from these idols!!!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Jezebel spirit

I believe that Satan has a PLAN. Intentional, secret, planned...to destroy marriages, churches, and believers. If we do not understand that- we are in danger of being overtaken.

Think about the intrigue of double agents in human affairs...The element of deception and secrecy are powerful.

So what are the areas of your life that are under siege?

What is the state of your marriage?

Are you being attacked by addictions, ungodly soul ties, Jezebel spirits and other deceivers??

How do you feel about your self?

Are you under siege by perfectionism, self doubt criticism? This is a war!!

Let me say it again:

This... is... a... war

What happens in a war? There are causalities...there is combat.

The Kingdom of God suffer violence and the violent take it by force.

Let us VIOLENTLY refuse Satan's Kingdom, rule, outposts and strongholds in our lives.

God' s timing is perfect

...completely PERFECT. Note to self: Remember this!

Last night dh came home and became engaged in computer games. I was feeling again, unloved, unnoticed, neglected...I started praying and suddenly one son falls and gets cut on his hand. DH goes to help, but in his concern and fear, starts yelling at the child and me.

At one point he glares at me, like he's going to take a swing...which he never has done, but the manifestation of frustration looked like he wanted to. He pushes me out of the kitchen. Not hard, but physically none the less.

I just want a break. I am in self pity. I hear the thought " I should move to my mom's house"- which I did do exactly one year ago...
Maybe I should go to the bar with my sister...not to drink, but just to be OUT...and let him miss me. I consider the Latin aerobics class...spirits is a bit troubled by that option...so I go for a long walk- outside at 9pm.

The night is beautiful, cloudy, breezy. I sit in a secluded spot, near my home, and near a lighted area, on the school property where we live. It's alone time with Jesus...how rarely I have such time away. I pour out my heart to him...my hurt. He tells he He loves me...and more , but that's the main thing, that He loves me. I feel restored and peaceful when I return home.

While I was gone, a sister in the Lord calls. One with a gift of mercy, who has been in three abusive marriages. She has endured horrible parental rejection...and yet, utterly without bitterness, or self pity. She mentions how the Lord taught her, even as a child in foster care, that there was always someone who had it worse.

Well her testimonies really build me up...and after a long wonderful phone call- the Lord has her pray for me for a gift of faith in believing for my husband's salvation.

BAM!!! That IS what I need! I've had it before in other areaa....that faith will hope you up, no matter what is happening and what you are seeing...!! Thank you Lord for putting that on her heart. And another thing....while I was praying to the Lord about my loneliness....that sister was calling my home- leaving a message that said " Hi sister, I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much!"

SOOOOO now the testimony:

There was an overnight sale at a local store. I almost went at midnight but then ended up missing it by 10 minutes...but that's OK! In the store, I run into a woman from an old church...actually the last one I attended. She told me that the pastor was voted out of the church by three dominant women there!! And that they were accusing him of an improper relationship...(no eyewitnesses though). She was concerned because although most people had left the church after the split...HER husband was still there...with these women. It was putting a great strain on their marriage. We prayed right there in the frozen food section...and interceded against what the Lord showed. I was praising Him for this divine appointment.

After I left the store- I go to get gas and learn that one of my bills is counterfeit! By Gods' grace, not only was that discovered IMMEDIATELY...but also I was able to go back and exchange it. The grocery store remembered me and exchanged the bill. (That in itself is a testimony!!) And my friend witnessed that. So I thought...wow Lord if you were able to save me from that fake bill...I believe you are also going to answer our prayers for her husband and marriage!! I felt like- yes- it's a confirmation!!

And driving, I realized...wow He set up this situation so that I would witness it. In it- A sister in Christ was blessed...I saw how division, rejection, and Jezebel operate against a marriage, and we both saw the Lord protecting me. I also heard what happened when I left that church...which was a hard thing to do...but that the word of knowledge warning, He had given me, about another spirit operating in that church...was correct.

I received all of this from the Lord just since last night!!!!!!!

Praise you Lord!


AND...I also confided to my husband that I was feeling ignored and unvalued....he was genuinely shocked. He said, "Well I have been thinking that I should take you out to dinner...I've been thinking that since your birthday. (two weeks ago)."

I told him,' The next time you get those thoughts, you should probably act on them because by time you think that, it's already late." So he does know what to do...but can be held back by fear, tiredness or passivity.

It's like the stock market. He has had excellent timing about when to buy/sell, but often does nothing due to self-doubt. I think I need to encourage these ideas of action that he hears... He invested a small amount of money and it increased hugely...it was an excellent move and most people disagreed...but his instincts were right on.

So I see again...no it's not intentional "neglect." The word that came to me was "cluelessness" (in a sweet way.)

Thinking of buying the 5 love languages book...we'll have to proceed very delicately with this matter.

Friday, September 23, 2011

When a person opens his mouth and speaks, his spirit also speaks.


.. His spirit will find some measure of release in the opening of his mouth however much he may try to contain himself. Our ability to discern what his spirit is saying depends on the measure of our exercise in the Lord. If we are exercised, we will be able to discern the words he has uttered, the words he has refrained from uttering, and even the words in his spirit. ~

Watchman Nee



(Thanks to sister C.)

Christian means "Christ like"

So simple, yet so profound.

Christian means Christ like.

What is He like?
humble
kind
gentle
long suffering
patient
fearless
willing to suffer being misunderstood
not promoting his own name
not hurting others in order to promote his own cause


Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,

(1 Cor. 6:9)