I believe that Satan has a PLAN. Intentional, secret, planned...to destroy marriages, churches, and believers. If we do not understand that- we are in danger of being overtaken.
Think about the intrigue of double agents in human affairs...The element of deception and secrecy are powerful.
So what are the areas of your life that are under siege?
What is the state of your marriage?
Are you being attacked by addictions, ungodly soul ties, Jezebel spirits and other deceivers??
How do you feel about your self?
Are you under siege by perfectionism, self doubt criticism? This is a war!!
Let me say it again:
This... is... a... war
What happens in a war? There are causalities...there is combat.
The Kingdom of God suffer violence and the violent take it by force.
Let us VIOLENTLY refuse Satan's Kingdom, rule, outposts and strongholds in our lives.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
God' s timing is perfect
...completely PERFECT. Note to self: Remember this!
Last night dh came home and became engaged in computer games. I was feeling again, unloved, unnoticed, neglected...I started praying and suddenly one son falls and gets cut on his hand. DH goes to help, but in his concern and fear, starts yelling at the child and me.
At one point he glares at me, like he's going to take a swing...which he never has done, but the manifestation of frustration looked like he wanted to. He pushes me out of the kitchen. Not hard, but physically none the less.
I just want a break. I am in self pity. I hear the thought " I should move to my mom's house"- which I did do exactly one year ago...
Maybe I should go to the bar with my sister...not to drink, but just to be OUT...and let him miss me. I consider the Latin aerobics class...spirits is a bit troubled by that option...so I go for a long walk- outside at 9pm.
The night is beautiful, cloudy, breezy. I sit in a secluded spot, near my home, and near a lighted area, on the school property where we live. It's alone time with Jesus...how rarely I have such time away. I pour out my heart to him...my hurt. He tells he He loves me...and more , but that's the main thing, that He loves me. I feel restored and peaceful when I return home.
While I was gone, a sister in the Lord calls. One with a gift of mercy, who has been in three abusive marriages. She has endured horrible parental rejection...and yet, utterly without bitterness, or self pity. She mentions how the Lord taught her, even as a child in foster care, that there was always someone who had it worse.
Well her testimonies really build me up...and after a long wonderful phone call- the Lord has her pray for me for a gift of faith in believing for my husband's salvation.
BAM!!! That IS what I need! I've had it before in other areaa....that faith will hope you up, no matter what is happening and what you are seeing...!! Thank you Lord for putting that on her heart. And another thing....while I was praying to the Lord about my loneliness....that sister was calling my home- leaving a message that said " Hi sister, I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much!"
SOOOOO now the testimony:
There was an overnight sale at a local store. I almost went at midnight but then ended up missing it by 10 minutes...but that's OK! In the store, I run into a woman from an old church...actually the last one I attended. She told me that the pastor was voted out of the church by three dominant women there!! And that they were accusing him of an improper relationship...(no eyewitnesses though). She was concerned because although most people had left the church after the split...HER husband was still there...with these women. It was putting a great strain on their marriage. We prayed right there in the frozen food section...and interceded against what the Lord showed. I was praising Him for this divine appointment.
After I left the store- I go to get gas and learn that one of my bills is counterfeit! By Gods' grace, not only was that discovered IMMEDIATELY...but also I was able to go back and exchange it. The grocery store remembered me and exchanged the bill. (That in itself is a testimony!!) And my friend witnessed that. So I thought...wow Lord if you were able to save me from that fake bill...I believe you are also going to answer our prayers for her husband and marriage!! I felt like- yes- it's a confirmation!!
And driving, I realized...wow He set up this situation so that I would witness it. In it- A sister in Christ was blessed...I saw how division, rejection, and Jezebel operate against a marriage, and we both saw the Lord protecting me. I also heard what happened when I left that church...which was a hard thing to do...but that the word of knowledge warning, He had given me, about another spirit operating in that church...was correct.
I received all of this from the Lord just since last night!!!!!!!
Praise you Lord!
AND...I also confided to my husband that I was feeling ignored and unvalued....he was genuinely shocked. He said, "Well I have been thinking that I should take you out to dinner...I've been thinking that since your birthday. (two weeks ago)."
I told him,' The next time you get those thoughts, you should probably act on them because by time you think that, it's already late." So he does know what to do...but can be held back by fear, tiredness or passivity.
It's like the stock market. He has had excellent timing about when to buy/sell, but often does nothing due to self-doubt. I think I need to encourage these ideas of action that he hears... He invested a small amount of money and it increased hugely...it was an excellent move and most people disagreed...but his instincts were right on.
So I see again...no it's not intentional "neglect." The word that came to me was "cluelessness" (in a sweet way.)
Thinking of buying the 5 love languages book...we'll have to proceed very delicately with this matter.
Last night dh came home and became engaged in computer games. I was feeling again, unloved, unnoticed, neglected...I started praying and suddenly one son falls and gets cut on his hand. DH goes to help, but in his concern and fear, starts yelling at the child and me.
At one point he glares at me, like he's going to take a swing...which he never has done, but the manifestation of frustration looked like he wanted to. He pushes me out of the kitchen. Not hard, but physically none the less.
I just want a break. I am in self pity. I hear the thought " I should move to my mom's house"- which I did do exactly one year ago...
Maybe I should go to the bar with my sister...not to drink, but just to be OUT...and let him miss me. I consider the Latin aerobics class...spirits is a bit troubled by that option...so I go for a long walk- outside at 9pm.
The night is beautiful, cloudy, breezy. I sit in a secluded spot, near my home, and near a lighted area, on the school property where we live. It's alone time with Jesus...how rarely I have such time away. I pour out my heart to him...my hurt. He tells he He loves me...and more , but that's the main thing, that He loves me. I feel restored and peaceful when I return home.
While I was gone, a sister in the Lord calls. One with a gift of mercy, who has been in three abusive marriages. She has endured horrible parental rejection...and yet, utterly without bitterness, or self pity. She mentions how the Lord taught her, even as a child in foster care, that there was always someone who had it worse.
Well her testimonies really build me up...and after a long wonderful phone call- the Lord has her pray for me for a gift of faith in believing for my husband's salvation.
BAM!!! That IS what I need! I've had it before in other areaa....that faith will hope you up, no matter what is happening and what you are seeing...!! Thank you Lord for putting that on her heart. And another thing....while I was praying to the Lord about my loneliness....that sister was calling my home- leaving a message that said " Hi sister, I just wanted to let you know that I love you so much!"
SOOOOO now the testimony:
There was an overnight sale at a local store. I almost went at midnight but then ended up missing it by 10 minutes...but that's OK! In the store, I run into a woman from an old church...actually the last one I attended. She told me that the pastor was voted out of the church by three dominant women there!! And that they were accusing him of an improper relationship...(no eyewitnesses though). She was concerned because although most people had left the church after the split...HER husband was still there...with these women. It was putting a great strain on their marriage. We prayed right there in the frozen food section...and interceded against what the Lord showed. I was praising Him for this divine appointment.
After I left the store- I go to get gas and learn that one of my bills is counterfeit! By Gods' grace, not only was that discovered IMMEDIATELY...but also I was able to go back and exchange it. The grocery store remembered me and exchanged the bill. (That in itself is a testimony!!) And my friend witnessed that. So I thought...wow Lord if you were able to save me from that fake bill...I believe you are also going to answer our prayers for her husband and marriage!! I felt like- yes- it's a confirmation!!
And driving, I realized...wow He set up this situation so that I would witness it. In it- A sister in Christ was blessed...I saw how division, rejection, and Jezebel operate against a marriage, and we both saw the Lord protecting me. I also heard what happened when I left that church...which was a hard thing to do...but that the word of knowledge warning, He had given me, about another spirit operating in that church...was correct.
I received all of this from the Lord just since last night!!!!!!!
Praise you Lord!
AND...I also confided to my husband that I was feeling ignored and unvalued....he was genuinely shocked. He said, "Well I have been thinking that I should take you out to dinner...I've been thinking that since your birthday. (two weeks ago)."
I told him,' The next time you get those thoughts, you should probably act on them because by time you think that, it's already late." So he does know what to do...but can be held back by fear, tiredness or passivity.
It's like the stock market. He has had excellent timing about when to buy/sell, but often does nothing due to self-doubt. I think I need to encourage these ideas of action that he hears... He invested a small amount of money and it increased hugely...it was an excellent move and most people disagreed...but his instincts were right on.
So I see again...no it's not intentional "neglect." The word that came to me was "cluelessness" (in a sweet way.)
Thinking of buying the 5 love languages book...we'll have to proceed very delicately with this matter.
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